This Christmas is totally sad. My family is in stuck of deep trouble. Lots of problems happened, a fear is in our soul. We need face to face to the burden. It acts like a criminal film. I cannot tell the whole things but i just describe my thoughts and feelings. When the holidays started, i felt bored when i have nothing to do. Noel makes me feel more sad cause of my bad moods. I only share things with the diary. My friends have gone with their family like vacation. Only me stay at home. My grandma suddenly fell ill, and i fell either. My aunt got stuck in money trouble, that's why my uncle hid the gangland. He just owned money from them to pay for gambling. I think the law will solve it in the right way. We know that owned money need to pay back, but not in that way, not recover a debt by violence or intimidate our family. This afternoon(22/12/2009), the gangland have come. They compelled us to call aunt. We denied calling. They asked for meeting my aunt. We replied truly but they didn't believe us. Why? I dare them touch to my family's life. "The barking dog will never bite"...If they intimidate us they will never do it. It has effect to my family's prestige. Their request will never be done when they use violence to do that.

After that, I mention about friendship. When i have best friend, i must be careful. Because, my uncle's friend had betrayed him. Life is not a thing use to sell or buy. If someone in my family die, i will never leave them alone, each person in that suck group. We need a cooperation from the criminal polices. I hope they will help my family.

After this school break, i have to concentrate to study. Last term, my results were bad. I'll try my best in the other term. I hope i don't be involved in love..... :| I need to be alone